Friday, March 5, 2010

A.D.I.D.A.S.

I feel like the older I get (mid 30's by the way), the more I think about sex. Its not just at home with the wife, its everywhere. We are bombarded by sexual images everyday, every hour and then not expected to feel those impulses? I can't stop thinking about what my cute young coworker would look like sucking me off, or what that hot little piece of ass that I just sold something to would look like naked, or maybe even bent over that counter getting it from behind.

It seems there is no reprieve from these thoughts either. I sit here alone at home today and from the moment I woke up, I can't stop thinking about it with no apparent catalyst. At least when I'm at work I know its watching that little sex kitten walking around making the day tougher to get through. Then at home the depression sets in a little more as realization dawns that there won't be any action tonight, again...

If I hear "I'm tired" again this week, I'm going to loose it. Why do I feel like the only one trying when it comes to our sex life? I buy her lingerie, only to see it once for a minute or two before it disappears into a drawer never to be seen again. I buy penthouse letters which she likes to read, only they end up being read when I'm not home. I buy porn movies which she is not adverse to watching, only she is rarely in the mood. I have bought toys to help liven things up in the bedroom a little, all I can say is that I'm pretty sure the rabbit gets a lot of use when I'm not around. I can't remember the last time she has made any attempt to buy anything.
I've been reading a lot online to try to help with these issues, and many of the suggestions just don't work the way there supposed to. I tell her how hot she looks in a certain matching bra and thong, she just shrugs it off. I make even more of an effort to help around the house knowing this is an issue she has, she never really notices how much more I'm doing. I guess its just killing me how much my sex drive in increasing and hers is not.
And that little vixen sauntering around work in her low cut tops and ass hugging pants is not helping my minds musings all all.

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